You know you are done when Get Me Away From Here, I'm Dying comes up on your playlist, you listen to the first (title) line of the song, and before you even realize you're saying anything, an "Amen to that" has escaped your lips.

I am so tired it is sort of stupid, but I cannot go to sleep yet because I must, at all costs, have these readings done for Japan Civ before I go to bed. They must be done, so that I can write my response to them surreptitiously in Origins.

THIS COLLEGE THING IS NOT ALL IT IS CRACKED UP TO BE. :(

Mood exanimate Music IT'S IN THE STARS - w-inds. Tags: angst, music, school

Columbia is setting up for its Homecoming Carnival tonight.

My section for Japan Civ (the one run by the British TA that I'm in heart with) starts at 11, and as I walked by, I noticed they were beginning to set up. When I came out at 12, all of the blow-up attractions were nearly finished, and it seemed that either they were testing the loudspeakers for the event or the people working on the set-up had a really loud radio, because as I was walking down College Walk I heard the distinct BAM-BAM-BANUM opening riff of, I shit you not, "Larger Than Life."

You know, the song by the Backstreet Boys?

I had the Backstreet Boys blaring at me from all directions all the way back to my dorm.

It was amazing. AMAZING.

Mood silly Tags: barnard, music

I love how life works sometimes.

I just read a lovely little Lily story, Touch The Face of the Stars. Some details seem to flout canon, but it has so much heart that I forgive it.

Anyway, I had just read this fic and was thinking about how much I really do love Lily and James and James/Lily and James/Lily with Harry (even if I don't read it very often because that way lies cutting behavior) and then "If I'd Found The Right Words To Say" came up on my shuffle in iTunes, and asdfjkl, I really can't listen to that song anymore because EVERY TIME it comes on I get teary-eyed thinking of them and just WOW, iTUNES YOU BE A MIND READER.

( It really just screams James and Lily, Halloween Night, Post-Mortem. )

Mood exhausted Music If I'd Found The Right Words To Say - Snow Patrol Tags: fanfic, harry potter, music

Because of my disillusionment with LJ, I ran off and had a torrid affair with Facebook and its new graffiti application. I'm back insomuch as I am ever back. Oh LJ, I'm fickle, but I always return to you. :D

( An iTunes meme... )

Mood blah Music Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap Tags: lj, memes, music, scandal

Yes, my iPods have related names. Yukio, I feel, was infinitely superior as a name, but Akio was taken from Akira and thus has its heart in the right place. Anyway, MEME!

( That pesky iPod fortune-telling meme! )

Mood heh Music Apply Some Pressure - Maximo Park Tags: memes, music

Somehow the Arthur theme song has made its way onto my iPod. And I am happy about this. I amaze myself with the levels of my dorkiness.

And I say - Hey! (Hey!) What a wonderful kind of day.
If we could learn to work and play and get along with each other...

Mood dorky Music Arthur Theme Song - Ziggy Marley & The Melody Makers Tags: life is strange, music, wtf

An icon dump!

Every single icon I've made so far, or at least what I feel is worth sharing. This will probably be a one time deal, unless I suddenly become really good at this photoshop thing and decide to take it up more seriously.

All of these icons are up for use, but no hotlinking. You've been warned. Please credit search_soleil in the comment space in your userpics. Please leave a comment here if you take anything!

Hikaru No Go: 8
The Beatles: 9
Phantom of the Opera: 5
DNAngel: 3
Tsubasa Chronicle: 2
Shoebox_Project: 2
Hanakimi: 1
Kyou Kara Maou: 2
Hyde: 2
Gackt: 1
Unknown: 2
Lord of the Rings Doujin: 1
Magic Knight Rayearth: 1
Mahou Tsukai Tai: 1
New York Stock: 1
Digi Charat: 1
Three Wolves' Mountain: 1
Full Metal Alchemist: 1
Akuma de Sourou: 1

( The Rest )

Mood blah Music Romeo and Juliet - Indigo Girls Tags: anime, fma, hikago, manga, music, my icons, nyc, sbp, yaoi

Alright, I admit it! Four days ago I gave in to the urge and made a Last.fm account. I also admit that I have been checking my charts obsessively. ( The only thing I am surprised about... )

Mood thoughtful Music Jenny, You're Barely Alive - Rilo Kiley Tags: music

I really cannot deal with life right now. I haven't got a clue what's wrong with me other than [perhaps] spectacularly severe burnout, but I have been getting progressively more apathetic about everything in the last week or so, and today I am so exhausted that I cannot even keep my eyes open for fanfic. Yes, you read that right. I cannot even be revived with fanfic, what I consider to be my fail-safe pick-me-up.

Also, I want more w-inds. songs right now. Damn the world for getting me hooked on them through yousendit links. Actually, me getting into w-inds. may deserve some documentation.

Mousapelli: *offers links*
Me: *apathetically downloads two CDs* Eh, might as well try them out.
Me (7 days later): Oh yeah, I have w-inds. stuff, don't I? *unzips, puts on Winamp playlist*
Me (5 minutes later): Wow, he really does sound like a woman. This is not to my taste at all. *keeps it on anyway*
Me (20 minutes later): *feels funny* Mm? What's this? I feel sort of... disgustingly happy?
Me (23 minutes later): *is converted* Oh, my God. They're so unrepentantly boy-band that they are somehow awesome! *goes to download more*
Mousapelli's links: *are dead*
Me: *attempts not to scream in untold agony*

Mood exhausted Music You Can't Get Away - w-inds. Tags: fanfic, fangirling, movies, music, rl

I have come to the realization that I am, in all senses of the word, a complete and utter freak. While I am quite worried for myself and more than vaguely horrified, I am also somewhat relieved that I can straight-facedly admit to it.

There are numerous reasons why I have come to this conclusion and most of them are stable facets of my personality. At some point in the distant past, I'm sure I hoped they were just phases, but I just realized about two and a half hours ago (it's just sinking in now) that they've always been around in some form or another and they don't plan on going away anytime soon.

I fear the last couple of years have just been the really splendid results of a potent mixture of repression and denial. The only difference between then and now is that now I believe there's no way my parents are responsible for everything that's the matter with me because, I mean, God, that would be even more disturbing than if I had brought it all on myself.

Lord help me when I'm out on my own and responsible for my own survival. I haven't a clue how I'll manage.


On a somewhat unrelated tangent, I'm completely flummoxed by how utterly obsessed I have been with The Smiths this past week. I don't understand it and I don't plan on trying to understand it, but I know on a very basic level that it has contributed to the overall WTF-ness of my mood right now.

Mood restless Music A playlist of The Smiths on continuous loop Tags: angst, moods, music, rl, wtf